Handmade Chocolate Soap

It was quite easy to make.. And it smells like cocoa :)

Summer Ring

Couple of days ago I took another ring finding which I received from my friend temporary living in Japan. I like making Japanese-styled rings. It's very quick and sparkling project! And I like how green looks together with pink. It's my favorite color combination at the moment. It looks like summer! :)

Black Sea Beads

Beads I made this summer just before going to Black Sea. That's why I called them Black Sea Beads :) This photo reminds me of Christmas, I think that's because of the soft yellow lights.

My own beadwork website, finally

I am very pleased to announce that my website about beadwork and beads was finally put on the web. It is in Russian, but hopefully, beading patterns and photos are things that unite beaders from different countries.
You can find interviews with my favorite beadwork artists like Robin Atkins, Vicki Star, Sherry Serafini and Jeannette Cook there, and browse free beading patterns.

Welcome! :)

P.S. I will appreciate any feedback, thanks :)

Meet Holga, my new toy

I'm a bad photographer. When I see something really beautiful I try to take a picture of it, and every shot I make looks dull. Holga¹, my last chance to become a photographer, arrived in a bright box a month ago, and we headed straight to Black Sea (Crimea, Ukraine), 'cause it was a vacation time.

A 'toy' camera is very fun & exciting thing to use. It's like a bunch of presents under a Christmas tree: you never know what you get, even if you see the boxes with presents :) Light leaks, shadows of the battery, vignetting, oh my god, they all are so amazing! Send your perfect digital photos with dozens of photoshop effects to a trash bin. It's time to think analog!

I really like my new toy. You can find my vacation Holga photos here.

¹Holga is a cheap plastic camera which uses professional medium format film.

What about my own online beads store?

I decided to make 6x6 cm pages for my unofficial Bead Journal Project, and then join them into one 24x18 cm beadwork. I make them so tiny just because I don't have experience in bead embroidery, and I almost don't have time to bead. So, 6x6 cm is optimal size to me. Unfortunately, my digital camera is broken, so I can't post picture of my work in progress, and I can't scan it either - because it has dimensional grass area. I'll photograph it later.

I'd better post a page from my visual journal - I created it when I graduated this winter.



Don't you know I have a degree in economic risk analysis? :) I studied mathematical methods in economics for 5.5 years, and I'm so happy it's over! I have humanitarian mindset and it was very hard and uninteresting experience.
Now I've started to think how to connect my job with my passion - beads. I've come to idea of online bead store - we don't have enough of them here in Russia. As a matter of fact, there are only 3 bead stores in Moscow, 4 or 5 online stores with quite poor selection, and there are no bead stores in other regions at all. So we have here the same situation that was 15 or 20 years ago in USA: 3 bead stores, no beadwork communities, fery few books & magazines and growing interest to beads - a large business & creative field to explore.
I can't explain how enthusiastic I feel about making my own business! I'm so tired to work in big company - mostly because I can't see the results of my work. I make sales contracts of goods I've never seen, how stupid!

So, my own online bead store. I'm trying to find beads manufactures (mostly in Europe, esp. Czech Respublic, to minimize shipping costs). Do you have any experience in beads business, or maybe you do have friends who know advantages & disadvantages of running bead store?
I would be very grateful if you could give me some information about beads business & manufactures.

I'm 23 and I'm a blood donor

27^th of April was a very special day. I became a blood donor. I realized that I live in pasteboard world. It's not real, I can't feel it. I can't feel myself. I'm not sure I do the right things every day. People live on Earth not just for going to work to make money to buy things and then go home to rest because they're tired of making money. I realized that being helpful to other people, making good deeds is the key to happiness. I can't find the right words to explain my feelings when they took 450 ml of my blood. I wasn't scared at all, it wasn't painful. It took only 15 minutes and than I became the happiest girl in the world. Only 15 minutes and 450 ml of blood can save somebody's life. I felt like flying, I felt so alive! My doctor was more utilitarian and said my euphoria could be caused by anoxaemia :) Anoxaemia or whatever - but I liked this feeling a lot. I can help other people. My life is not senseless.

And one more thing I want to share - on May, 12^th I celebrated my 23^rd birthday. I'm a big girl now! And I'm frustrated I missed Robin's Beaded Journal project. I think I should organize my own Beaded Journal project, with only one participant. Myself :)

What do Logistics Sales Coordinators do in weekends

Here's my another 1,5-hour project. I don't remember when I did something "serious" for the last time - it seems like I always make rings, earrings, pins & sometimes bracelets. This is because I want to see the results of my work immediately, and because I always get bored doing the same thing for a long period.
I've been promoted 2 months ago, now I'm a Logistics Sales Coordinator, lol. It's very funny - I said I hate doing the same thing every day and at the same time I do the same things at work. You should really see me - I make sales contracts and when I have free time I browse collage & beadwork books at Amazon.com. I have an economics degree, but I dream about being a designer.
I've started to think about going to USA. First of all, I want to take a collage class, and a lampwork class. Second, I want to visit some concert.. Death Cab For Cutie, for example. I'm so so so in love with them and I'm not sure they're going to Russia ))
Life is so strange.
And I am so young ans stupid (:

Princess Ring

This is my second brick stitch experience.
I usually make such beadworks using 2 needles, but this time I had only one needle with me and Diane Fitzgerald's Beading With Brick Stitch book helped me to make the first row around the central blue bead. I realized that lack of supplies could be useful somehow. If I had 2 or more needles with me last weekend I wouldn't explore this new technique (=
I like the result.

A Farewell to Arms

This girl won Miss Unsorted title 2 months ago. Unsorted is the name of our local online forum, a place where young people living in my town share interests, blog and so on. I shared the second prize with a girl temporarily living in Tokyo, Japan. Miss Unsorted is very cute, you can see it in the picture above. They say that we both who shared the second prize are smart and have interesting blogs.

I don't know what happened next, but I suppose that someone has told this girl aka Miss Unsorted that I don't like her and think she's stupid and ugly, and that the first prize should be mine, and so on. As a matter of fact, I was happy with my second prize and I didn't even think about her. Anyway, a few days after that competition I received a lot of unpleasant words about me. In fact, there was a great scandal after that contest. I was very surprized and frustrated with that all.

Well, to make a long story short, I don't like her since that event. But I'm tired of this disintegrating feeling and I decided to make something that could help me to get over my dislike of her. So, this is how this piece was born. A Farewell to Arms is my try to forgive and forget. I'm going to present this collage to her. I don't want to meet her or talk to her, I think I'll just put it into her mailbox with a couple of words. But I'm not sure what I should say her in my letter. . I'm tired to hate you? How stupid. I really want to get rid of this feeling.

This is my last piece which was created in December. I think I have an artistic block (or I'm too tired to make something after a day spent in the office). Every day I apply gesso to another page in my sketchbook and I draw nothing, I just leave it blank. This will save my time in future (=

Well, I think this is my best work, lol))
My second photoshop collage is about my happiness.
About being together.

Well, I've finally received some books I ordered at amazon.com in November. Yesterday I was reading Collage Discovery Workshop by Claudine Hellmuth and I was so inspired that I created this self-portrait. I couldn't make paper collage because I don't have enough supplies, but I was sooo exited that I decided to make my collage in Adobe Photoshop. Voilà! Here's my very first creation. I'm going to buy paints next weekend and create something real.

Downshifting. We studied this new word at my English classes this Saturday.
Later on Saturday evening I received the December'06 issue of Bead&Button. I can't find right words to express my astonishment when I saw 'From the Editor' column. And that article about Larry Scott in the middle of the issue, it amazed me a lot. I'm very imaginative person. I see signs everywhere, you know (%
These signs scream something like 'Don't be afraid! You can change your life! Stop killing yourself. Everything is possible.'
It's no wonder I started to think about downshifting - I've fallen into a swoon last Friday and since then I feel sick and tired. I'm going to a doctor tomorrow, 'cause I don't like the way I feel. Stress or overfatigue or whatever. The only thing I want is to lie on a bed. Today is only Tuesday, but I feel totally exhausted.
Guess what I'm going to do on my December, 4 - December, 12 annual leave? I'll spend these days working on my graduation work which must be finished by December, 13. Then I'm coming back to office work.

Well, better stop whining (%
Great. Everything will be great after a while.

I've made this piece a year ago. It is called Summer Bracelet. It was the worst summer in my life because of the endless reflection and that gnawing lonely feeling.
I'm glad it's all over now, and my autumn depression has gone as well, because of a new brilliant idea.
After graduating from Russian Academy of Economics I plan to go to British Higher School of Arts and Design. I don't want to be an economist and I'm tired of risk analysis.
Design is my real passion. I like making things, I like reading beadwork books, I like browsing designer's websites.
In January, 2007 - May, 2007 I'm taking an access course at British Higher School of Arts & Design. During that period we'll make my own portfolio under the direction of their teachers. I hope I'll pass the entrance examinations after that.
You know what? I don't want to be a passenger in my own life. It's never late to change everything. Especially when you're 22 (=
I can live again.

It's me beneath the sky of St.Petersburg.
It was the best weekend I had this summer.
I was sooo happy.
I was in love.
I am in love, as a matter of fact.
Just need a vacation, I feel a little tired.

Hi, my name is Tanya, I'm 22 years old and I want nothing.
I missed my English classes today. Music irritates me. I don't want to read. I even don't want to bead. I want nothing, as a matter of fact. Just apathy and all.
Hahaha, girl_of_fall hates fall (%
I'm waiting for the winter to come, I want to feel the snow on my face. I want to go snowboarding and once again feel that terrific feeling when you ride, and a gentle wind blows, and the snow falls, and nothing really matters.
I feel alive only on weekends when I'm not supposed to go to the office. Last weekend we took a train to Podolsk. There's a deserted XIX-century limestone quarry, very large and very dark, and the strangest place I've ever been to.

Yesterday I was so fed up with everything that I even deleted all entries at my Unsorted blog.
So here I am. New blog, new life, yeah.
New life, hah..
It's very frustrating I don't have time to bead, I spend the greater part of my life here in office. I hate sitting in office, I hate answering telephone calls. This girl sitting at reception, she's not me!
I want to explore my creative side, I don't want to sit on a chair all day long. I just go crazy.

Can't wait for time when I store up enough money to pay for floristic classes. To buy a ton of beadwork & collage books. Then I'll quit this job to begin new life.